You never really liked me. You just like having me around because you know I always got your back.
One of my favorite days, R
It was a fine Tuesday morning we have an oral examination in Filipino. I was upset with what I have done on my test but then I was fine because of Ralph. I know I haven’t told you anything about him, but after few weeks of having a crush on Prince I have realized that looking at a handsome person and having a crush have a big difference. So Ralph huh, he is a tall guy, fair, cutest and smart. I liked all of his imperfections, how he stayed by the bleachers while others were playing basketball, how he hated it when he sees his friend smokes, how he hated some of the vices you thought guys would never avoid but he does and that’s kind of amazing. He is not perfect, let us admit that nobody’s perfect but for me he’s kind of a perfect catch. HAHAHAHA. We are in the same group in our project in Math so I can’t avoid him. When I picked my topic on our extemporaneous speech, he asked for my topic and when he saw it he cheered me up which made me smile. After our speech I walked with them they were carrying the podium and we talked like real talked like never before which I think is an improvement. They went to the comfort room, I waited outside but I didn’t wait long because Ralph stayed outside too and asked where I was staying. I guess I was blushing every time he talks to me. When Jayvee finds out that Ralph is coming with us, he said, “Sus, para-paraan ka lang eh. *evil smile*” I was bothered. When we are in the jeep, I asked, “Magkano?” (Even if I know how much.) he said, “Wag na, ako na magbabayad.” I was so KILIG!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, I tried my best to hide it maybe he was just being polite. Then we talked, like talked again at the jeep because our two companions were busy doing their stuffs. When we bought our materials, we were throwing jokes at each other and laugh. We ate at the KFC, he said he’s going with me to order, my gahd he is not even stoping on making me blush. He doesn’t realize that it makes me very uncomfortable but I really tried my best to hide it!! Then everyone came with us. Sad life. HAHAHAHAHAHA, we were talking again. Endless talking I realized, I wouldn’t get tired sharing ideas with him, finding out who he really is, knowing him better. I love the sound of his laugh especially when I was the one who was joking. I love the way he smiles at simple things, how he frowns at me when he doesn’t understand what I am saying. Oh my god, he is just so cute I want to eat his face!! When we were eating, we talked a lot about girlfriend and stuffs I’ve decided to just listen to them talk like boys talk. I asked them if they’re going to the Kamikazee and PNE’s concert on September 17, they told me Ralph was coming and he doesn’t have a companion so I volunteered, my gosh this is an opportunity. After a while I asked them to go home, and we did. We bid good byes at each other and Ralph said that I could come with them on Friday so we can also do our project in Math, so at the end of the day I was just so happy and happier and happiest.
Am I? I don’t know what they call it but now I enjoy sharing weirdness with that particular person. I will know when it’s already love but now love is a deep feeling. I don’t know yet if I’m ready to fall deep.
ONE SIDED FRIENDSHIP
It’s been a long time since the last time I wrote something. Then one afternoon I was crying on my way home then I felt the need to write. I was tired on the long stretches of surprises I found here in college. I thought it would be fun because I will have friends to laugh with, talk with in times of depression. I thought I found one.. His name is Rhenz Erric Repizo. He is so adorable, humorous, sarcastic and funny all in one person. Three months, it’s almost three months of happiness with him. College is never boring with him at my side. He is the one who will hold my hair when I’m drinking in the fountain, he’s the one who’ll laugh at my jokes even if it’s not really funny, he’s the one who’ll tell me when to stop judging people, he’s the one whom I can call boyfie, he’s the one who will get mad when I eat isaw. He is the one who’ll eat with me at lunch. He is my best friend.. or I just thought he was.
Today, I hated myself for getting too attached to certain people like him who never appreciated my existence. I know I sounded bitter but I know that it’s true. Today, I know he’s avoiding me. I walked with him on our dismissal, he told me everything. He told me that he’ll never put too much emotion on our friendship; it’s like saying our friendship is pointless. I did not answer. I don’t know what to say because I am too hurt to say anything. It’s very painful than saying I’m irritating. I don’t want to say goodbye but I think I already did..
That’s what you get
This is another story. Papunta na kong Cavite galling Calamba at nagkita kami nila Benny at Prince sa SM to eat dinner. Nag-decide kami na sa Burger King nalang kumain kasi dun lang may vacant na table. Masaya we had small talks which develop our friendship. (Di ko na crush si Prince, friend lang pala talaga yung tingin ko sa kanya.) Tapos nalaman nilang nakapasa nga ako dun sa Lasallian Pop Band so pinapakanta nila ako. Eh nahihiya akong kumanta dun sa BK ang daming tao sa paligid. Edi sabi nila sa Quantum nalang daw, edi punta naman kaming Quantum. Tapos bumili kami ng tokens, pinakanta nila ako dun sa public videoke hindi dun sa private. THE FAK. I picked, “That’s What You Get by Paramore” nung kumakanta na ko. Grabe, nakakahiya. HAHAHAHA, chinicheer nila ko pero patigil-tigil ako tapos nararamdaman ko ang dami ng nanonood. After nun, ang lamig ko binigay ko nalang dun sa mga babae yung kanta. Nag-basketball nalang kami. Pagkalabas naming ng Quantum, sabi nila ang galing ko daw. Edi ako humble lang. HAHAHAHAHA, SHET. TAE, AKO BA TO. Tapos ayun, umuwi na kami. Nakauwi ako mga 9 pm na. Buti nalang fiesta pala ditto samin sa Cavite kaya hindi ako napagalitan kasi maingay pa sila eh. HAHAHAHAHA. And that is also one of the best days of my life.